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You sat cross-legged on your bed. A razor blade, a full bottle of sleeping pills, and a elegant written note in front of you.

Done.

That's how you felt. The weight on your shoulders was crushing you, bringing you down into an early grave. The storm cloud that always hovered over you was now striking you with lighting bolts of sadness.

You may be dating a hunter, but you were positive, nothing could hunt down your pain.

Tears streamed down your face. You had used Sam's computer to look up painless ways to kill yourself. But every answer told you not to, only one said it was extremely painful.

It didn't matter.

You deserved the pain. If you had to endure it for so long, what was the difference if you suffered a bit more?

You picked up the blade, placing it into your palm. You curled your hand into a fist, feeling the sharp metal slide against your skin, the warm fluid running down your arm.

You cried and threw the blade across the room.

Grabbing the note, you held it to your chest, your blood staining the page.

Sam's iPod was on repeat, of one song that made you cry. It was so beautiful. It's what you wanted the boys to hear when they found your body.

You hummed along and unscrewed the cap off the sleeping pills.

'Goodbye Dean.' You thought and tipped your head back.

You had nothing to live for.

The bottle was suddenly knocked from your hand, you were pulled into a strong chest and your boyfriend's head was buried in the crook of your neck.

You were frozen, too shocked to move.

You had thought Dean was on a hunt. You clearly underestimated his speed.

You could feel Dean's hot tears on your neck, his grip un-breakable.

Un-breakable, how you wish you were.

"Dea-" you began.

"Shut up!" He interrupted.

Your eyes widened.

"Just shut up! What would have happened if I didn't get here in time, Huh? Would I be holding your dead body? Would I read some dumb ass note about how you're sorry? Would Sammy have to come pry my sorry ass away from your bloody self? WOULD YOU REALLY BE SO STUPID TO LEAVE ME BEHIND?!" Dean shouted, his voice cracked.

He pulled away and pointed an accusing finger at you.

"Did you think you had nothing to live for? That no one cared, no one understood? Like no one was hurting the same way? You selfish brat! How do you think I would feel if you were dead? I would kill myself! Then how would Sammy feel? Bobby? Cas? This wouldn't just affect you (Name)! Godamnit, I love you, so fucking much. So don't you ever, ever do something so stupid again." Dean shouted, his cheeks wet.

He grabbed your shoulders and hugged you again. You cried, hiccuping sobs into his short, griping tight at the fabric.

"I'm sorry." You whispered.

"I'm sorry."

"You damn well better be. You scared me shitless (Name)."

"I won't ever, do it again. I promise."

He picked you up bridal style and maneuvered you so he could slide under the covers with you. His soothing drawing on your back made you tired.

"Love of mine, someday you will die, and I'll be right behind. I'll follow you into the dark." He sang softly and curled protectively around you.
WANRNING: Swearing/Suicide Attempt

Song: www.youtube.com/watch?v=uLagQY… (I Will Follow You Into The Dark -Gavin Mikhail

If you are feeling suicidal, please don't keep it inside. Talk to someone.

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-2433 and 1-800-273-8255

Please excuse all Grammar/Spelling mistakes.

Disclaimer:
I do not own you or Dean Winchester.
Supernatural belongs to it's rightful owners.
I do not make any profit from this.
This is a work of fiction.
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:iconfridgebiscuit:
Fridgebiscuit Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2016
Great story, but is the reader's hand still bleeding as he/she gets in bed with dean?
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Eternal-Violet-Void Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2016
Yeah, this is one of my older stories, back when I first started so there are some errors.
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TheDreamerOfTimeLord Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2016  Hobbyist Writer
Im crying, and I'm happy, and I can't believe that something this good exists, and just really wow. 
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Eternal-Violet-Void Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2016
Oh my goodness, you are so sweet, thank you so much!
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JeshaBuenavista Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2015  New Deviant Professional Photographer
That.......
Was.........
CUTE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cheerleader Caramel dansen emote fair fight Annoying Dog 
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Eternal-Violet-Void Featured By Owner Dec 20, 2015
Thank you!
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UglyUnicorns1 Featured By Owner Oct 20, 2015
Omg I was listening to this song
I will follow you into the dark - Death Cab for Cutie
Also good fic!🐪🐫
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Eternal-Violet-Void Featured By Owner Oct 21, 2015
Thank you!!
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devlishfox Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2015
holy fuck im gonna cry. this was lovely and sad and now im all emotional and i am not an emotional person. god damn.
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:iconeternal-violet-void:
Eternal-Violet-Void Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2015
Awe, don't cry! :3
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Lisa-Lucia Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2015
I also desperately need a Dean... 
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nightfallcreeper Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2015
Did I go to sleep with my arm still bleeding?
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:iconeternal-violet-void:
Eternal-Violet-Void Featured By Owner Oct 8, 2015
Yeah, this is one of my older stories, back when I first started so there are some errors.
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Eimi-san Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I am sorry but the first line just made me think of the song Bullet! "My legs are dangling off the edge, a bottle full of pills didn't work again! I think i'll put a bullet in my head! And I'm gone. gone. gone. gone~!" 

GREAT FANFIC BY THE WAY!!
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Eternal-Violet-Void Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2015
That Hollywood Undead though. XD
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Eimi-san Featured By Owner Sep 25, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Heh heh heh~ "Is gone on too long tell you how it ends~ I'm sitting on the edge with my two best friend~ ones a bottle of pills and ones a bottle gin~! 50 stories up, yea up at the top! I polish off this bottle now it's push me off!" ~<3
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FangirlOverload3202 Featured By Owner Sep 13, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Im actually crying.
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Luna134 Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I need a Dean
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amandathebadgirl Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2015
;-; why is this so heart warming
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The-Winchesters-Past Featured By Owner Aug 17, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
ooooooohmigod this was just
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rainbowbunnyforever Featured By Owner Jul 8, 2015
THE FEEEEELLLSSS ARE TOOO STRONG
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GottaLoveThatFandom Featured By Owner Jul 6, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
Miuna Crying Icon 
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SukiAckerman Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2015  Student Artist
Love it
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:iconeternal-violet-void:
Eternal-Violet-Void Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2015
Thank you! 
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SukiAckerman Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2015  Student Artist
your welcome
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samfury3 Featured By Owner Apr 12, 2015  Hobbyist Writer
Omg I actually know this song and think of dean signing it makes me.just want to cry in a corner.
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RavenluvsSesshomaru Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
-cries forever-
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TeppitGirl Featured By Owner Mar 21, 2015
I instead listened to 'Frame of Mind by Tristam & Braken' I personally thot this was a touching story and the song I chose to listen while reading this made it perfect <3 But yes I will follow you into the dark by Gavin was the song you recommended and I love it also. 
   Could you make another powerful short story, but instead with sam? Or one of the angels? :3
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shelbywinchester Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2015  Student Writer
THE FEELS!!! *faints*
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LittleWeasley Featured By Owner Feb 28, 2015
I love this song
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Iamfrodobaggins Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2015
I wanted to cry so hard!!!! And that song was perfect!!
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:iconeternal-violet-void:
Eternal-Violet-Void Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2015
Thank you so much!
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Iamfrodobaggins Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2015
Welcome!!
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sigwil Featured By Owner Feb 8, 2015  Hobbyist Digital Artist
If you like iron man, and want to cry. Read Blue as true as blue can be. Then go in the corner and cry like an 8 year old Just like you did to this fic.
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AnnietheBug Featured By Owner Feb 3, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
THIS FANFIC IS THE GREATEST THING I
I THINK I NEED TO CURL INTO A BALL AND CRY NOW OMG

<333
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Eternal-Violet-Void Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2015
Daw, thanks! Nuuu, don't cry! :iconsupertighthugplz:
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Starling405 Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I'm actually crying, this is perfect
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Eternal-Violet-Void Featured By Owner Jan 27, 2015
Awe, don't cry! :iconsupertighthugplz:

Thank you so much!
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KatieLuvkitties Featured By Owner Jan 3, 2015
Why you do this?!? All these fan fics is sad.. But worth reader cuz the are awesome!!
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MishaAndSipps Featured By Owner Dec 29, 2014  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Hug Heart This might've just been the only fanfic I have every cried at. This is truly uplifting to me and I love it so much because depression gets me a lot. Keep up the good writing :,)
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WordsWithWings Featured By Owner Dec 21, 2014
Oh my heart
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sempitirnal Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
You know, whenever depression gets the best of me and I think about putting an end to it I start reading trigger fanfiction, because most of them end like yours, with a nice happy end, and that's what I needed now.
Thank you.
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Eternal-Violet-Void Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2014
I do that too. It's really nice to read something like that because I think it ground you and help you up. I'm so glad this helped you, if you ever need to talk, my inbox is always open. :)
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sempitirnal Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
I think that's the reason too.
Thank you, I will remember that.
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Eternal-Violet-Void Featured By Owner Dec 16, 2014
Of course!
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Insane-In-A-Good-Way Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
1. beautiful! AMAZING! 2. I LOVE THAT SONG! SO PERFECT!
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Insanitylover213 Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
I cried 
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Eternal-Violet-Void Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2014
Oh no! Don't cry! :iconsupertighthugplz:
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Insanitylover213 Featured By Owner Nov 7, 2014  Hobbyist Artist
*cries in your arms*
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ChocolateFrogs13 Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2014
It also really helped my friend, who was thinking about committing suicide...can't thank you enough for that. 
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